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Kelly Liu's avatar

This pursuit of belonging is so real!! I’m also going to be going back to China this year in November and similarly and hoping for some healing around my Chinese identity <3 and also have been wondering how much me looking different from my peers in elementary school gave me this deep fear of not being fully accepted by anyone … thanks for sharing Cissy <3

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Mika's avatar

First of all, beautifully written.

I felt similar feelings of coming home when I went to Hawaii and met mixed races. Growing up in New Zealand, there were not a lot of mixed race kids, and where I lived hardly any Asians.

So to go to Hawaii and be in the minority for only being half, instead of a sprinkle of that, a touch of this and a dollop of that was surreal.

I never felt like I did fit in either until I got a mixed friend in my last year of High School. She was half Asian like me and we liked the same music and taste in clothes - which was a mix of all the people around us. We were a swirl, not just vanilla or caramel.

Thank you for opening up with your experiences. It helps us to recognise and heal some parts of our past too. 💕

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