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Vinamrata Singal's avatar

I've been on a similar journey! thank you so much for sharing how you're learning to trust yourself. Here's to two immigrant girlies finding healing :)

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Cissy Hu's avatar

rooting for you on your journey inward, always! 💖

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Nina Guilbeault, PhD's avatar

A beautifully crafted and thoughtful letter to yourself and to all of us for whom control is a bid for safety. I particularly resonated with this: “Over the years, my penchant for control has closely mirrored the turmoil I faced (avoided) internally.”

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Cissy Hu's avatar

ahh, "a bid for safety" – here's to cultivating more and more safety within ourselves through deep and meaningful friendships :)

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Nina Guilbeault, PhD's avatar

Here with you through all of it!

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Ray Liu's avatar

Wow, so much overlap with the topics I’ve been thinking about in the past year! Self-trust, surrender, letting go of control, de-optimizing, and how it all relates to being raised in an immigrant upbringing. Thanks for writing and sharing so openly, Cissy!

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Cissy Hu's avatar

it's all just a process of unlearning, isn't it? 🙂‍↕️

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Michelle Elisabeth Varghese's avatar

This was an awesome read, so much of it resonated with me! I've had moments too where I felt myself letting go of the millions of trackers in my life. As recently as this week, I was talking to my sister about how natural it feels for me to go with the flow yet I created such a deep narrative that I need to change to align with "being productive" that somewhere along the way I lost any trust that the way that is natural to me is the right way for me. It does all work out. Thank you for sharing!

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Cissy Hu's avatar

💯 I resonate a lot with the notion of brute forcing flow. I had seasons of my life that I was optimizing every margin of my life, but nothing felt easeful — all of these systems ended up suppressing me into fragile ways of operating rather than building resiliency into my life

glad to hear you’re strengthening your self-trust too :)

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Masha Vibrant Yoga's avatar

I resonate so deeply with this! As an immigrant myself, I observe the threads of the mistrust of the universe and yet I work on it every day to allow the world to work out for me

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Cissy Hu's avatar

one decision, one reference point at a time — we’ll slowly get there :)

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Os Ishmael's avatar

A thoughtful read, yes I do my podcasts on 2x. Time to change that habit and get trust the flow.

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Cissy Hu's avatar

it was amazing how joyful listening to audio became as I slowly transitioned away from what was beginning to sound like a disorientated chipmunk 😆

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